Friends, Make the World Go Around...Men Just Enhance It!

I have found myself pondering what makes me happy - What do I want out of MY life? Marriage and babies tend to be on most women's mind when it comes to life successes. However, I have never felt these were necessary to live a fulfilled life. I have a best friend, whose name I will not use to protect the innocent, but together we are going to copyright: "I want (insert name) to enhance my life, not be my life." We both feel strongly about this and when she used this line, I whole heartedly agreed! I like to think of marriage as a partnership where both parties bring something to the table. I honestly feel marriage has changed significantly since the "nuclear" family has adjusted and changed over the years. Also you do not have to be legally married to be in a partnership. I like to think of all relationships (friends, work, family) in my life as partnerships. Why should one person ever hold up a relationship/partnership for two people - "PARTNER" assumes two or more people are involved.
I am at a time in my life, where friends are marrying, friends are divorcing, friends are welcoming bouncing babies (the first or second), friends are buying homes or upgrading homes and I have some friends who are still trying to find themselves. I have recently decided to control your own happiness you never truly find yourself, but you ebb and flow with the tides. I have been known to be a control freak and if something isn't done the way I do it, then it is wrong - I am making an effort to work on these things in my life. This is where Yoga entered my life last week. People really take time out of the day to stretch and just be in the current space?? I am not there yet, because my mind does not seem to have a pause button. However, I am going to give it a good try. I like the idea in theory.
****This blog entry may seem to be all over the place, but I have been thinking alot and I just like to write it all out.****I am also at a point in my life where I am learning/trying to listen more and not talk so much. I am not saying I did not like the way I lived my life before, I am just trying something new. We all learn from our mistakes and it can be painful to watch what you think is a mistake take place before your eyes, but who am I tell anyone else how to live their life? At this point, I am still deciding how to live mine. :) Also it may not be a mistake, it may be the best decision ever made! I don't take "risks" well - so I often think things maybe mistakes but they aren't. I am vowing via this blog to incorporate some "calculated" risks into my everyday life. I know I am “that friend” that if I give too much unwanted input people don’t like me (or what I have to say). I can be opinionated and I've always said, "that is just who I am." However, I am attempting to begin a new journey (path) in my life where I am going to step back, watch, listen, live and enjoy. I am always willing to offer my input or a word of caution, but it is not up to me to try and save the world. Why did I ever feel it was my job to protect others? I think I am honestly just a caregiver at heart and I want to make everything better - I love projects! I am going to care for ME!